I have been going through a lot of changes lately. Recently I sold my business as I no longer felt aligned with it and there were so many other things I felt called towards. I will write more about this another time I am sure.
Today is about stretching boundaries and starting. Just starting, one step at a time.
In owning a business I have been moved beyond my comfort zone many times. It is uncomfortable but in order to grow we need to feel discomfort. It shows we are expanding, moving beyond what we know and into new territory. It is uncomfortable but satisfying, liberating and exhilarating.
I am once again moving into new territory.
One area that I have so far not been able to move past though is starting my own blog. A proper blog where I post regularly, honestly, openly and vulnerably.
I enjoy reading blogs, I find so much wisdom and comfort in many. I am inspired by the openness and honesty. I’ve wanted to start my own blog for a long time. I feel I have a lot to share, and maybe a few people will read it. It might help someone out and another person might feel inspired by it. If so, that’s even better. For years I’ve been saying I want to start a blog.
That I will soon.
When I have more time.
So many excuses have moved me from one day to the next, always keeping that desire for a blog ahead of me, in front somewhere but never in the now.
When I found myself with more time, I decided that there was no point to start yet as no one would read it. I’d do it one day when I had more to say, things that were more interesting. There were already so many people out there writing about similar things, so why would anyone want to read mine.
Or I would procrastinate. I can be a master procrastinator when I choose. Distracting myself with housework, scrolling through social media or googling all kinds of obscure topics.
How often do we do that, keep our dreams just out of reach, some distance away. Allowing fear of the unknown to keep us from getting too close to them.
I know of course what has been holding me back. A deep fear of really showing myself, allowing myself to be heard and being found wanting. It is not unusual or uncommon, this fear is keeping many of us silenced. Fear of being laughed at, ridiculed for who we really are.
I have realised though that every day that I give into these voices, that I am allowing myself to play small.
There is nothing wrong with fear, it can be very useful in certain situations, but when it has been holding you back from growing and evolving beyond your boundaries it needs to be faced head on.
So if I keep giving in another year will pass and I will be in this same position. But if I start now then in a years’ time who knows where I could be. I could of course decide that blogging is not for me after all but at least I would have tried and made the decision on my own terms.
The trick is to just start.
You don’t have to have the whole picture. All you need to know is where you want to go and take that first step that will move you towards it. Then reassess, look around and decide which step to take next and so on. As long as you are taking steps you are moving forward. And after the next year has passed you might be surprised where you find yourself. It’s like learning to walk for the first time, or learning to ride a bike. You always have to start somewhere. This is nothing new, we all know this but it is easy to forget or just ignore when our fears take hold.
Whatever you want to do but haven’t yet, just start, take that first step and you can figure the rest out as you go.
Is there something that you have been putting off that you can take the first steps on today?